Monthly Archives: May 2013

Sky Reflecting


Listening to the CBC I heard an interview with someone involved in setting up the Biodome in Montreal.

When he spoke of the emotional response of the scientists to the request for their vision in designing the Biodome I was moved, too. Whereas, usually they would be hired to execute an assignment – do the job as described – here they were being asked for what they wanted, what they desired, what they envisioned. And what they wanted was to present nature to the public in a way that would make people see its beauty and want to take care of it.

In that moment an idea coalesced and the words: “Dreams are the poems of science” came to me. This is my understanding of the creative beauty of science – the knowledge of our minds and souls/bodies/hearts – as brought to us via the amazing vehicle of dreams. I wanted to go to the Biodome, meet scientists, ask them their dreams, see the convergence of outer and inner science in the synchronicity of the happenings in nature and the dreams of scientists. Later that day my best friend, the one with whom I have had synchronous dream events, emailed asking if I would like to go on an adventure to Montreal. I said yes, and did and the image above is from the Gulf of St. Lawrence ecosystem, one of four beautiful, contained ecosystems that the Biodome offers. I was in love with a skate and photographed it coming to the surface and turning upside down, showing its mouth and so on. Then it lay on the bottom and blinked up through the water with sky-reflecting eyes.

Dreams are the poems of science. They are singing through us, born of impulses and information that want beauty, power, healing.

Dreams are made of thought, blood, bone and soul. They blink at us from deep down through sky-reflecting eyes.



Matriarch you are wanting.

You are wanting control and the best for your children as you know it.

You are wanting, but your want is above clarity, above and beyond the clear seeing with only your concerns, your wringing concerns that squeeze the joy and spontaneity out of life and lives and children.

God,¬†you are beautiful even at this age and regal, but not so warm and not so smart as you think because your children hide themselves from you and so you don’t know them and you don’t know the facts of their lives and so you don’t know the foundation of your creation, this family you have brought to this place.

Matriarch, if I love you, if I can (and do I have to?), I wonder if you deserve it.

I would want beauty to blossom with age instead of this flourishing pallor of control in the skin of your face.

You are a juggler of beauty and control, but neither can win because something will be dropped and perhaps both.

Crash the control and the beauty is – oh – there is more beauty there in your surprise, in the ecstasy of your sorrow as you think it’s all lost now.

Face is lost, but your face is found.

Matriarch, you are wanting, but your wanting would change from this ring, this ring of children standing around waiting to berate and condemn and make to feel guilty the one who broke the rules, who wrote, who went away and wrote things down and lost the noose of obligation and did not grieve though he needed to.

Matriarch, you are wanting, but where is your love?

The magician in the square was talking about you, wasn’t she?

The cover is almost blown.

You are a myth.

Yes, I know, happiness is not guaranteed and sometimes all you have left is your dignity, but is there no faith in love?

Your writer son has tried to have faith in love, has drunk the wine to forget that the mother of his love on earth, his matriarchal heart needs a healing he has not imagined in all his letters, in all his lovers – he has not imagined the scene, the atmosphere, the blossom of what particular tree that would satisfy the wanting, would return the colour to the face of the mother.

Matriarch, your arch, your rule is informed by a shame that goes back so very long, that goes back to a longing misplaced.

Maybe it was a unique event, a girl woman’s walk across a square away from the gaze of the men who were on alert and she wasn’t expecting it, but she woke up and went stiff and kept walking and then the men wanted something they could not share and so it began.

The frugal distribution of affection and flirtation to keep the peace, to keep the honour, to keep the status, to keep the estate, the wealth, the access to the money, per year and all for what?

Can you count that up for me and send me the bill?

(Response to dream of 2013_05_08)