After the paint dries

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Reveal

I am intrigued by the content and feel of recent dreams and by some of their fragments and titles:
France with Gramma at tidal flats
Woman asserts breasts.
Related to their teacher
The woman is a bottle.
The chrome matrix is understood as a whole.

At this moment the most interesting element in recent dreams is the repeated appearance of  ‘many people busy working to solve a mystery’. The people are competent and accomplished, and while I am fretting and feeling incompetent and identifying as a ‘problem’, these characters are going about their business.

This morning’s dream fragment seems to point toward an impending completion and indicates an action I might take for the moment:

People are working both together and independently to solve a mystery or make something happen. They are taking their work seriously, but are not being serious, just focused.

A man and someone else are attending to something after all the action of investigating and solving.

Looking at the object before me I can see that we have to wait for the paint to dry before we can see clearly. As the paint dries its surface changes so the finished state is revealed only then. Realizing this I respond with intentional waiting. I feel my state change from seeking to focused waiting. I understand this is what is required and it gives me energy so that I am both alert and calm.

In the dream and upon waking it feels so good to be clear that waiting is the thing, that something has been applied in order to accomplish something, a renovation, or building, or installing. And that ‘waiting to see’ is required to discover the condition of the ‘thing’ in order to act again. Far from feeling passive and undirected this waiting has energy and rightness.

And I can’t help but think that those people working away in the background are the productive parts of me I am becoming aware of!

As I write I think of the three stages of creative process: research, production and fallow. I am often uncertain about which phase I am in. In the past months I have ‘felt’ that I am in research phase. I would like to be more intentional in my creative work, consciously identifying and entering phases and using my time and energy in a more balanced way (and not ‘fretting’ about what I should be doing). In this dream fragment the ‘reveal’ promised after the paint dries could be the culmination of the ‘research’ pursued by various characters/processes in the dream state over the course of weeks. Contrary to the idiom: “As exciting as watching paint dry,” this moment has great momentum; the waiting is full of purpose because I can actually see the surface changing before my eyes. At least I hope that’s what’s happening!
Perhaps the ‘thing’ for the next production phase will be revealed.
Well, I shall ‘see’ soon enough.

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